Emily at 14 mths of age ~ a few months before we went to get her
Our First Meeting ~ She was such a good baby!
Home for 2 months ~ Look at the difference
Home for 5 1/2 months ~ She is always this happy!!!
Our little monkey ~ Right before her lip surgery
Right after her lip surgery ~ look how beautiful she is!
Her new face is appearing right before our eyes :)
This picture was taken 2 days after surgery
And now Emily is back :) ~ This picture was taken 3 days after surgery
Tomorrow we go and see Dr Smith for a check up!! I am very excited about what is to come. She should be able to take her arm braces off and the stent in her nose will be removed as well.... I am not sure which one I am most excited about. She has done amazing with the arm braces and they don't bother her one bit. I do think she wakes up earlier and is taking shorter naps because she is uncomfortable, but she always puts her arm out after bath time to put them back on! She is such a trooper, I'm so proud of her! God is so good to answer prayer ~ this week has not been as hard as I expected, only because of His grace though! Even during my pitty party's last week before surgery He still granted me grace afterwards! We are so undeserving of his love, and yet He gives it and gives abundantly! Amen!
Last night our precious Emily curled up in my arms and sucked her thumb ~ and today she is looking at me showing me her arms and saying Uh Oh........ Wanting me to take off the braces on her arms so she can suck her thumb today!!!! Surgery went extremely well, it took about 2 1/2 hours total, surgery and recovery. We then were sent to our room and and she is sleeping well but on and off. She is watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, and zoning out every once in awhile. God is so good, he gave me unbelievable amount of peace this morning and I have done very well today! Thank you so much to all of you for your prayers, and those who came to the hospital!!! We love you all so much
Mommy and Emily right before the surgery!!!
Emily was in a great mood ~ & was acting like a monkey.
Right after surgery, and very much tired!
We are kinda ready to play, but it didn't last very long! She is still doing so good though
Well tomorrow is a big day in the Mueller home...... Its a day we have dreaded and looked forward to all at the same time. Emily has her first surgery for her lip tomorrow at 9 am. I have broken down a few time ~ well many times ~ thinking about how things are going to change. I know this change will bring sadness and happiness as well. So here is a few thoughts that I have had about this surgery ~
Not to much longer...... she will be taking the last normal bath for awhile, we cant get her lip wet.
Not to much longer....... I will be watching her suck her thumb with her tongue waving over it and being able to see it. I will miss this so much.
Not to much longer........ she will be able to eat so much more!
Not to much longer...... she will not clean her nose out herself ~ I know gross, this is the one thing we will not miss at all!
Not to much longer...... we will be driving to OKC!
Not to much longer....... we will be preparing her for surgery.
Not to much longer........ we will be waiting in the waiting room for the Dr. to come out and tell us everything went very well.
Not to much longer....... I will be comforting my baby!
Not to much longer....... we will be seeing her new smile ~ but at the same time be missing the old smile!
Not to much longer...... we will be loving Emily's new face, and her personality that matches it!
Not to much longer........ the surgery will be over and this well all be a distant memory! :)
We are prepared for what is to come tomorrow ~ but please join us in prayer as we continue through the next few hours and days to come! Pray for bonding, comfort, a low level of pain, patience from me and daddy, quick recovery, and for Emily to be willing to wear the arm braces she will be in to keep her from touching her lip. :( Please feel free to call or text me anytime! If I don't answer I will call/text you back asap!!!
We had a picnic in Enid with all our new found friends!!! We then played in the splash pad located in the park! The kids had a blast ~ even some of the big ones! This time is very special to parents and the kids because we are able to talk to people who have been through the same process we have been through and the kids are surrounded by people that look just like them! I love to see them all play together and have so much fun!! It is just an enjoyable time, with friends, family and all with things in common!
Ashley didn't want to swim, but Emily was trying to convince her!!!
We celebrated our freedom at Grandma and Grandpa's house!!! We had dinner and I nice show in the backyard! Although the weather was not the greatest it made for a very cool evening! Ashley, Kaylee and Kuyler lit all our fireworks and put on a great show! Although this was the day after Falls Creek, we had a wonderful time and stayed awake! Emily seemed to like the fireworks, she was not scared of them, but we had a hard time keeping her attention! I love spending 4th of July with my family and look forward to the tradition to continue!! We love you Grandma Sue and Papa and Grandma Illene!!!!
Daddy and his baby girl!!!
Emily and her mommy, watching fireworks!
Kaylee helping with the fireworks!
Grandma Sue and Emily ~ she loves her Grandma Sue!
Not sure if Emily is showing her Grandma Illene how to set in the chair, but it was cute!
Ashley and Kuyler ~ this was close to their 4 year anniversary of being friends and eventually dating!!! We love you Kuyler!
Another fantastic week at Falls Creek ~ We had a wonderful bunch of students that were well behaved, excited to be there and very obedient to all the rules!!! We strive to not make Falls Creek all about the rules, but when our student abide by them it makes it so much easier for us sponsors. This year we were joined by another church in our community, and what a blessing it was to be one body of Christ and not two different denominations. God is good! All the time! Kaylee surrendered to Missions ~ starting at her school! Ashley committed to Christ that she would talk to her friends and really be that friend who loved Christ always and wherever she was! They both have upheld that promise and commentment and are excited about sharing with others..... :) This year I took Emily, and although that did pose some issues through the week, I was very pleased with the outcome. Emily did wonderful, sleeping all night and loved hanging out with the girls!!!!! I myself enjoyed having her there, it was just a challenge and difficult sometimes to not be able to do everything I was able to do in the past years!!! God really spoke to me about Faith, and how I have lacked it in the past few weeks, in the small things! Things are much better, and I'm still learning! Thank you God for meeting us there, but most of all for not leaving us when we leave Falls Creek! You are always with us to the end!
Ashley and some of her closest friends!
Kaylee and two of her best friends!
Me and the gang ~ we will be friends forever and always!
Emily ~ the newest member of the band!!!! :)
Our Youth group playing the newest sensations ~ NINJA ASSASSIN
Our speakers for the week ~ The Skit Guys!
The did a wonderful job, and really spoke to all of us!
Myself with a few of the other Sponsors! I'm sure we are talking serious stuff
Falls Creek is just not the same with out Kayla, although she didn't get to go as a sponsor she came up and visited us for an evening!!!!
Emily enjoying the high chair time ~ because it meant that yummy food that our cooks cooked for us!!!!
APP APPROVED ~ 9/26/08 HOME STUDY BEGUN ~ 11/18/08 HOME STUDY FINSIHED ~ 2/18/09 PAPERWORK ARRIVED AT CIS ~ 3/25/09 FINGERPRINTS ~ 4/28/09 I-800 RECEIVED ~ 5/11/09 RECIEVED REFERRAL ~ 7/7/09 PA~ 7/21/09 LOA ~ 10/22/09 TA ~ 1/05/10 CA ~ 2/03/10
David and I Testimony
Let me share with you are testimony that brought us to Adoption and where He is taking us now.
As most of you know I went to Falls Creek the last week of June, and the Lord spoke to me about China once more. My husband was there with me and there was many things going on between him and I that needed to be fixed and had to be taken care of. Because of that I was a little worried to bring up China again, for fear of him really getting mad at me. With the power of the Lord I faced those fears and talked to him about adoption and we really discussed where and what we were suppose to do. He was really not on board as usual, but I asked him to pray consistently about adoption and I would wait to hear from him. Waiting is really not my style, but the Lord granted me that gift and I was somewhat quiet....... My oldest daughter was not completely on board either, for she is very structured and afraid of change. Kaylee on the other hand was ready to fill out an application immediately. With many days of prayer my husband told me that he was feeling led to pursue a special little girl, one you all might remember. She was all of the sudden back in our lives, for the fact of an incredible story. She had been referred to a very special woman in Florida for reasons of her own, had declined her. She was born very premature and had some medical issues that were current. The special lady in Florida had to make the very difficult decision and followed her heart. She had been in contact with Connie and she had shared the news with us the day after we got back from Falls Creek. This is where our story picks up by David saying I feel we should pursue a special little girl. My heart sunk and thought Oh my, this is why I went to China, this is why I held her, this is our little girl. With the ladies help in Florida we had more information than what was needed. Bless you S, we found out her name is Hai Lun Xin Qing and she was born on April 7, 2007. We began the process of trying to find her and where her file was. We contacted an agency who helped us to take the next steps, after many phone calls we found her agency that she was at one time listed with. Contacting them was so exciting, and yet I was very scared of the outcome of the phone call. The agency proceeded to tell us that they did not have that file and appeared to never have had that file. I contacted my friend in a panic and said what do we do? She did her best detective work and called me back and said this is the agency call them back and ask for Non Special Needs. I did and sure enough we found it and I was speaking to a wonderful lady, we will call her "B". "B" was so touched by our story and how I had held her that she was going to do anything and everything to help us. She had their agency contact person in China go to the CCAA and request her file to be put on the Special Needs List. "B" than asked me to write a letter to the CCAA requesting her and expressing our love and how we could help her. I hate to write letters, I know what you are thinking REALLY, but I mustered up all the words, thoughts, requirements, and love and wrote the letter. It was sent to CCAA and the waiting process began. We waited and waited.......... Meanwhile "B" said nothing was in stone about receiving this little girl, but if we thought we would adopt anyways we should send our application to the agency to began the process. I talked to David and he told me then, "If we don't get Hai Lun I do not feel we are to adopt" in other words he felt it was her, and if not than we were not to go on. The waiting continued, and then we received a very special gift from Heidi. She was in China and visited the same orphanage that we did, and she was able to take pictures of Hai Lun and sent them to us. We were so excited about the pictures, and all the incredible things the Lord had done up to this point. I thought we really need to send our application in because I really felt the Lord leading me to do this and I was hoping that David would pray or fell the same at this point. I talked to him one special evening and he said he agreed and the next night the application was filled out and in the mail. We were not sure where this was going to take us but "B" said it was a step in the right direction. We were so excited and awaited for the Lord to work. Much to our surprise He did not work in the way we thought He would, but Oh did He work. Two days after sending our application in, on a Friday, we received a phone call from "B" and she started the phone call with "I don't have great news", she proceeded to tell us that the CCAA had requested a medical exam and Hai Lun was very healthy and they had decided to put her on the Non Special Needs list, shortly after those words I was brought to my knees and began to weep. I was crying so hard I don't even think I got the words "good bye" out. As the news sank in I began to get very angry with the Lord, asking Him "why" and telling Him I don't understand why we did all of this and Hai Lun is not ours. My husband and girls took it pretty hard, and we were not sure what to do next. We were already planning on leaving for the weekend for a get away trip, we stuck with our plans. I was hoping as the mom to talk about what had happen and what were to do next. My girls were ok with what ever the outcome was, but I could not get David to talk or change his idea of adoption (that idea being Hai Lun or nothing). My anger with the Lord slowly went away, and the devil was quick to move it to David, because I became very angry with him in the fact that he would not talk, pray, or even think about moving forward. A few days after the news I told my husband how I was feeling and the every emotion that came with those feelings. He said that he would pray about it, but he was really not feeling led in that direction. He began to pray on a Tuesday and things moved quickly. He asked a couple questions Tuesday night, and I knew not to over react to those questions but I also knew that the Lord was speaking to him in some way and he was acting on it. Although I was mourning, over Hai Lun, what seemed to be a lost to me, I was also wanting to adopt another special little girl. This one being the little girl that the Lord had placed in our family already. For He knows the plans for us (Jeremiah 29:11) Wednesday night my husband had asked me many times "What do you want for your birthday?" I would say "I don't know", he asked many many times through out the evening. Before we went to bed, he disappeared and I found him in Ashley's room with the door shut. I thought (selfish, I know) that they were talking about my birthday plans. So I went to bed........ David came in and was surprised I was already in bed and was worried that I had listened to the conversation between him and Ashley. With that worry from David, it confirmed my thoughts of birthday plans. He asked me what they were talking about, and I told him that I really did not listen. He asked me to guess, and I said "Birthday", he said "NO". I was talking to Ashley about her true feelings on adoption. I asked if he could share and he told me that she was on board and that she was afraid of change but she knew that it would be ok and that it would be really cool. He then asked me one more time, "What would you like for your birthday?", I answered the same way once again. "I don't know" with tears in his eyes he said "How about a 'YES'". I was a little confused but I asked "What do you mean?" He said "Do you want to be a mommy again, my heart has been changed and I feel we should go to China and adopt". David story is quite incredible, and I will post his version of his transformation. I could not believe it, after 2 years of adoption on my heart, and waiting on the Lords timing, we were finally here. WE ARE ADOPTING!!!!!!! I can't believe it, our application has been approved and we will be starting our Home Study soon. Who would have thought that in a year and a half I will be in China twice, both an experience that will be incredible and a gift for God that will be cherished forever. Another gift we received from the Lord is Hai Lun has been referred and accepted from a very special mom and dad in Spain, and they have a very special story themselves. Praise the Lord that she is healthy and has her forever family too.
I end my testimony with this, there is a movie that ends with these lines "What is impossible with my God" and the team answers with "nothing Coach". So believers "What is impossible with my God" I answer "Nothing"!!!! Two years of waiting and my husband heart has been changed forever, and we will soon be a family of 5. Lord I thank you for the process, the things you have shown us, taught us, how we learned to lean on you more than ever before, the miracles, and confirming in us the power of pray. Your grace is sufficient and your love amazes me each and every day. Lord, I cant wait to see what you are going to do with the Mueller family and how we will see your work in our lives and learn more about you.
"Be completely humble and gentle: be patient, bearing with one another in love"